2008

Here’s to 2008. I suppose I am looking forward to the coming year, not because of some well-planned resolutions [that I would most likely abandon anyway]. I look forward to it because, well, there is no way it can get any worse than the year we just evaded. Some years are milestones, full of learned lessons and the strengthening of character. Although in some distant moment I may look back at 2007 as that kind of memory, I wish only to erase it completely now.

A year in review, for any who doubt me: I turned 21 and with it came new experiences filled with drama and adventure. Alcohol is marketed on hype alone. I wish it were abandoned for it has only destroyed so many fine evenings. February marks the ending of a long relationship with someone I cared deeply about. That was so hard. I’ll never forget that night. I was in counseling, and soon discovered I had a depression strong enough to demand outside help [on many levels]. I’ve never felt anything like that before. It hurt. I couldn’t escape. Sometimes, I still find myself grasped in it again. The summer was slightly awful. Despite a few trips I took to ease my mind, reality awaited me when I returned. I was betrayed by a good friend. My eyes were opened to many things I wish I had never seen, friends’ true intentions and secrets. Then came Fall and a semester from Hell. Four upper division Psychology classes and a Theology class. I am still recovering even after 2 weeks of rest. Those are the major points. If only I had space to write you what really happened. So many secrets… So much heartbreak this year. But I won’t bore you with the details…

I’d like to lose weight this year, along with every other American. I’d like to graduate and never look back. I’d like to make millions and become a successful… [well, I’d figure that out eventually I ‘spose.] I’d like to find people whom I can trust again. Maybe even find God and a church that won’t inevitably prove my theories about Christianity. To tell the truth, no resolution means as much to me as this one: I’d like to find a true happiness. Yes, that would settle it for me. I hope the same for you, dear reader. May 2008 bring you the happiness you long for. And if not, at least we have our blogs and each other to cope with what lies ahead.