Back to Reality

The real world beckons me, come. I fear this approaching week, for I did not utilize my spring break in a way that would ease my undeniable stress. You see, although I finished the activities for certain school related assignments, I have not written the lengthy papers that accompany them. And they are due incredibly soon.

I am back in my apartment. Tomorrow is an early morning. School begins again. Can you tell that I am mentally unprepared for this daunting forecast? Soon, it will be over, though! The summer is only 24 days away! I can make it; I am [almost] positive!

The other thing on my mind is my unstoppable "emo" phase. True, at first glance you might deem me "preppy," but deep down inside there is a girl with raging feelings who likes listening to bands who share those raging feelings. My emotions are taking over, and it will take some divine intervention to stop them. For now, I will listen to those lyrics that make me say, "Yes, yes! That is so true, and my life parallels that phrase!" And I will also share some of those lyrics with you:


John Mayer: [A portion of] Split Screen Sadness
…All you need is love is a lie cause
We had love but we still said goodbye
Now we're tired, battered fighters
And it stings when it's nobody's fault
Cause there's nothing to blame at the drop of your name
It's only the air you took and the breath you left
Maybe I'll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on the porch 'til you come back home
Oh, right
I can't find a flight
So I'll check the weather wherever you are
Cause I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight
It might be my only right

We share the sadness
Split screen sadness

I called
Because
I just
Need to feel you on the line
Don't hang up this time
And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you'd fought me 'til your dying day
Don't let me get away

Cause I can't wait to figure out what's wrong with me
So I can say this is the way that I used to be
There's no substitute for time
Or for the sadness
Split screen sadness
We share the sadness


Thank you to those who have put up with me lately; you are true friends. I promise that I will eventually snap out of this phase! To Mom and Dad, thank you for a great week! I loved being with you!

And so it begins: Get ready world! I am going to kick butt this week, even if it kills me [which it might...]

Good night, dream well, friends. And dream big. Never forget to dream big.